God's Glory Church

Test me, O God, and know my heart, examine me, and know my thoughts. — Psalm 138:23
When my husband Dan and I decided to take care of our elderly parents, the first day we held each other’s hands felt like we were about to jump into the abyss. Little did we know at the time that the greatest of the challenges ahead would be to allow God to search and shape our hearts, to allow Him to use this time in such a way as to transform us into the likeness of Jesus.

In those days when I felt like I was flying into an abyss in free fall, God revealed the secret things in my heart, hidden motives, fears, pride and selfishness. Where I suffered spiritual defeats, He showed His love and forgiveness.

The pastor told me then: “The best day is the day when you first see yourself with your own eyes – hopeless without Christ; and then you see yourself with God’s eyes – complete in Him.” This is exactly the kind of blessing I have received in my life through the ministry of guardianship. When I saw what God created me for, I stopped in my tracks and ran crying into His open arms. I tearfully cried out to God, as the psalmist once did: “Test me, O God, and know my heart” (Ps. 138:23).

I pray that you too will have such an experience – that when you see your heart in the midst of difficult circumstances, you can run with tears to the open, loving arms of God, who always grants forgiveness.

Dear Father, today I confess a desperate need for Your love, wisdom and grace. Explore and know my heart. Fill my life with Your grace and mercy, so that my heart receives healing.
Restlessness comes – strength disappears; let’s run to God – strength returns.
Author: Shelley Beach